Yo, I realised today how this internship is just a really awesome class. Go hang out with cool people, learn how to do useful stuff for any job like give speeches, organize events, lead groups, how to negotiate a bureaucracy. So I’m taking 6 classes and managing to do pretty well, it’s fucking awesome. I also found i may have 3 lab classes, a comp sci class, and a math class next semester, which would suck a lot. like a lot. College is mad work. I’m gonna bitch about it, man up and do it, while bitching a little bit about it. whatever.

Philip K Dick’s VALIS trilogy is off the fucking rocker. I tried reading VALIS first and was seriously very very very confused, I got 50 pages in and kinda lost it. I went back and read Radio Free Albemuth, which was pretty cool. The role of the FBI and intelligence services in this country have grown larger and larger and it’s really sad. Freedom is something..that’s hoped for at least. Sad state of affairs, especially with the recent events in the national government.

To counter the crazy, proto-religiousness of that I’m looking at The Divine Invasion, which doesn’t promise to be any better. The Gnostics seem really cool, but as someone with no background in the Christian faith I’m not even sure how to begin. There’s just so much out there to learn, I barely understand the Gnostics or really anything out there. They say the more you know, the more you realise how little you truly know. It would be incredible if we didn’t have to sleep, just read and study and learn all night. Become infinite machines of knowledge.

Several books need to be read by the other people working on the environmental campaign, especially Ecotopia…and maybe the EAS 101 textbook.  I dunno, everyone should just read stuff. I might just bring in an article for people to listen to at the next Enviro meeting. That would be really cool. Inform the group, get them to write LTE’s, and do events. That would be awesome.

Alright, i’m gonna go to sleep so i have time to chill out on the roof in the am. 


“I started thin…

“I started thinking about that, and I used to think that the Talib would come, and he would just kill me. But then I said, ‘If he comes, what would you do Malala?’ then I would reply to myself, ‘Malala, just take a shoe and hit him.’ But then I said, ‘If you hit a Talib with your shoe, then there would be no difference between you and the Talib. You must not treat others with cruelty and that much harshly, you must fight others but through peace and through dialogue and through education.’ Then I said I will tell him how important education is and that ‘I even want education for your children as well.’ And I will tell him, ‘That’s what I want to tell you, now do what you want.'” – Malala Yousafzai, The Daily Show

People are beyond human, beyond what we are biologically constrained to be. There are some people, some human beings that have overcome the rat race of this world. The ideologically pure, the idealist, the girl that believes anything is surmountable. These people believe there is some idea that is truly bigger than them, something that society and mankind needs to advance. It’s so goddamn beautiful. She has a little heart and it goes out to all the children in the world that need an education. It is the heroism of people that has led to great social change, that inspired the Civil Rights Movement, that led to socialist uprisings across the world, to fascists seizing power in Germany, to the Greeks fighting for freedom against the Turks. 

We are saved and led by our idealism, our burning desire in something greater than ourselves, our hope.  Today, the fighters of Al-Qaeda and radical groups are in Somalia, Mali, Nigeria, Syria, Pakistan, and Afghanistan. Unions struggle for workers in Mexico, Brazil, Spain, Greece, and across Latin America. In the United States, hard line Republicans refuse to back down from their demands to overturn the Affordable Care Act. Environmentalists sacrifice the comforts of modern consumerism for eco-sancutaries.

It’s so motivational to know people are inspired by beliefs they hold higher than thsemelves. That if you truly believe in something there will be people with you that will fight with you and go for that change. That as a human being you can make a real change to the rest of humanity, to your community,  If reading about the latest government shutdown and how they refuse to solve anything and you want to change it, you can. Inspire your local community, do better than what has been done. 

You’re better than what’s come before you, so you better prove it. It’s your duty to overcome the restraints set on you by the former generation and to rise above it. So go do something, be a Malala or a John Muir or a David Brower or a MLK Jr. or a Ghandi or a George Orwell. Go out and be the change you want.

Starting off college

Starting classes was really odd to begin with. There was the whole thing with me moving out, seeing some random girl, not working, having 5 classes and an internship. It’s a really odd time for me, and I’m becoming more and more idealistic while learning more and more about the real world. The classes, the girl, moving out, everything is making me understand things I never could comprehend. Life’s kind of awesome, but I have a bummed out feeling about it. it’s for a bunch of reasons.

All the classes are making me look down on college, especially a commuter school, immensely. The knowledge could easily be learned from peer to peer or tutoring, or straight up reading out of the textbook. So what’s the point of class? Listening and networking and socializing, except no one does that because everyone just wants to go back home after class. No one hangs out, everyone just drops in for their class. Everyone’s working. No one makes friends at school, it’s pretty sad. 

The work in the classes is also pretty ridiculous. In calc we’re computing derivatives for ridiculous trig functions that have no real life application…by hand. My math skills are getting a serious overhaul here. The other classes have weird busywork that are so pointless…like writing out a sentence outline for a speech when you can’t use the outline itself.  but it’s making me realize in my situation I should have a fucking 4.0. Everything should be done perfectly, no excuses. I left a stress filled environment for one that is mildly stressful. This semester should be stellar and I should figure out what’s coming next afterwards, but all my work should be fucking awesome. This week there’s 2 papers and a few labs do, they should cranked out tomorrow and tonight. Got to cut the bullshit, seriously.

Between classes I’m also working on the environmental campaign with the non profit at school, which is pretty awesome. We’re just..raising awareness about the issue, which is honestly enough to get something done SOMETIMES. Political saliency of fracking might actually do something, not to mention greater awareness and pushes for recycling and composting. The tangent about getting the majority of people to recycle is interesting but a totally different topic 

We have three meetings a week now, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. It’s getting pretty ridiculous, but it’s easy internship hours I guess. Also having stuff for people to do is super awesome. We’re screening The Sky Is Pink on Thursday, which should be fun. I want to get at least 1 Gasland II screening done this semester, it’s gonna be sweet. I need to get an agenda of stuff for the semester out, need to consult with my PC on that. 

This is a weird sort of ranty journal entry, with random thoughts strewn about. Don’t wanna scare away random people. 

also textbooks are fucking overpriced to hell. The ones I bought set me back a huge amount, it’s insane. PDF’s, Torrents, Buying used/renting is the only way to go. Also scholarships are gonna be so necessary. Even getting a $1000 scholarship would mean paying off a huge part of my tuition for nothing. A sweet $10,000 scholarship would make me sustainable for the year. I need to check on which ones I’m gonna do, hopefully all of them. 

I’m gonna go spend another 15 hours in bed sleeping off this fever and reading, and gonna crank out work tomorrow.